Christmas present of sorts

Sunday our washer stopped working and we were bummed since we didn't plan on buying a new one. But my hubby tried to fix it and instead it just broke even more. It was on its way out as my husband could tell by the way it broke while he was fixing it. So he did his research as he does on everything, and after reading many reviews he told me that we were going to spend the extra money and get the front loaders. I was shocked because I thought he would just find the cheapest ones but was excited nonetheless. So after getting our beauties home and hooking them up, I was ready to wash and dry. I read the manual and these puppies are very temperamental! The biggest issue with the washer is the fact that they can grow mold if you do not take good care of them. So when you are done with your laundry for the day you have to wipe the gasket around the door down really good. This little issue does make me nervous but it is something I will overlook in order to take good care of these! The other crazy thing about these two is that they make noise. A little jingle when they are done, not the annoying buzzing noise but an actual song is played. I haven’t figured out what the song is but is quite interesting. The first time we heard it we were shocked and couldn’t figure out what it was!!

Weird coincidence?

My husband started a new job today and get this.... its at Home Federal where I left to take my new job. He will be working in the IT department which is my old department, in my old desk with my old email address. I think its all a little weird. Right now he will be working 10-7 but in a few weeks he will be working 3pm-midnight. The position is running the nightly batch which affects credits and debits into customers accounts. I'm excited for him but its hard not to admit its weird! It will be nice to have a full time paycheck coming in but most of all this schedule will work perfectly with school.

Oh and did I mention that my hubby looked hot in his nice dress/work clothes. I could get used to that for sure!!

Marriage stuff

Last night my hubby irritated me and I was mad which doesn’t take much to do with me! But after I just backed off and let myself cool down I was fine and it didn’t bother me so much. When I was lying in bed trying to fall asleep I started to think about that and was proud of myself for coming so far. I used to be the one who would get mad over little things and wanted to argue about it. After arguing for a while I could never really remember what made me so mad in the first place. It made me think about the things I have learned since being with Matt for so long and being married to him. I think the three most important things to a good marriage are communication, respect for each other, and picking your battles.
I would never claim that our marriage is perfect or that I know a lot about being married but I do feel like being with someone for over ten years and married for three of those years qualifies me to talk about this!
Communication was not something we were good at in the beginning because we were both immature and trying to figure things out. I was always honest with Matt and wanted the same back from him. Now I would say we communicate very well and that’s our strongest area of our relationship. I know that when couples stop communication it can lead to issues.
Respecting each other has always been important. I don’t complain about Matt to my friends and never to his family. That will cause issues all around and out of respect for him I do not do this.
Picking your battles is huge. It’s easy to get upset with your partner and want to argue to prove your right but before you know it your two hours into a fight that doesn’t mean anything anymore. I am not saying it’s not okay to argue because I think it’s actually healthy and to disagree and talk it out is normal but starting an argument over everything is not going to make your relationship stronger. I think picking your battles comes with maturity and feeling confident in yourself and your relationship makes it easier to just throw in the towel and let the argument go.

Mr. Homemaker

For the last month my hubby hasn’t been working. When he started his IT program in august he went part time at Pepsi. This was to allow him more flexibility with school since that is Monday through Friday 8am to noon. He worked part time for a few months until Pepsi let him go. It wasn’t a huge shocker since it was a possibility the whole time. Pepsi doesn’t do part time and were making an exception for him. So for the last month he hasn’t had a job and there have been some definite perks. When he gets out of school he spends a few hours a day going grocery shopping, going to the bank, cleaning the house, doing laundry, and making dinner. Since I work full time and go to school as well this has been a huge help for me. I don’t have to worry about the dinner or house stuff because I know he has it taken care of. My hubby has gotten really good at doing all these things that it will be missed when he starts working again.
Last night we were talking about him getting a part time job, something around 20 hours a week and I have to admit a little part of me was saying no! I know he will still help around the house but I also know he won’t be able to help as much and I really got used to it! It’s nice to have a partner who can step up and help where you are lacking. I always tell my hubby we are a great team.

C- won't cut it

I got a call from my advisor right before Thanksgiving break who told me that in two of my classes I got a C-. I didn’t see the big deal until she said that the ACE program will not accept this. Of course I was super disappointed in myself for getting a C- twice but what could I do about it. I try really hard in all my classes and some things I am not going to be good at. So now I am stuck retaking those two classes in hopes of getting higher than a C-, no pressure or anything! But the worst news of all….this puts me back a semester. Because of how the classes in this particular program are laid out, they are not offered all the time. I was pretty bummed almost depressed. After talking to the hubby about it we decided it happened for a reason. That’s how we think most things happen in life, for a reason. They may not happen how you planned or you may not see the outcome at first but in the end you realize it was for the best.

Thankful

This year has been hard and continues to be but with everything going on I am happy and grateful for everything I have.

Laptop Sold

I'm glad I posted this on my blog, got it sold in 5 seconds flat!!!

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Crazy question

Matt asked me who I would be with if it weren't him. That's such an odd question because we have been together for over 10 years and I can't imagine being with anyone else. He says he makes me laugh and he's not sure anyone else would. He's probably right because I am laughing constantly with him. He is the funniest person I know with the best sense of humor. He makes everyone around him laugh and doesn't even try.
I'm blessed to have him in my life and don't want to think about who I would be with if it weren't him.

A dumb but fun decision

At the begining of the week I decided I wanted an iPad. Obviously this was something I wanted and not something I needed or even thought I would get but I still wanted it. I have had my iphone for over a month and just love it to pieces. Its just a device but I am now an apple person and my husband hates it. So on wednesday when I met the hubby for lunch I told him I wanted one. I told him I would sell my ipod and laptop (that I have only had a year) and then I could get an iPad. At first when I told him he rolled his eyes but I just tried to convince him. I had done alot of research but still needed his help to figure out if an ipad or another tablet would be the way to go. So we both decided to do more research and think about it. Friday I had the day off and still kept thinking about an ipad but I knew I need to sell my other two electronics first.
When Matt got home we went and got some lunch and did some errands and ended up at Best Buy. I looked at the ipads and still knew I wanted one but was open to the idea of another tablet. Well after leaving Best Buy we headed to the apple store in Boise to talk to some people who knew their stuff because I had some serious questions. I wanted to make sure I was making the right decision and I would still be able to use this ipad like a computer but only better. We got to the apple store and started to look around. Then talked to a sales person about my questions, I was satisified with the answers and ready to go when my dear hubby said lets get the ipad in white. I almost choked. I looked at him and the girl and then told him we needed to talk. I was not expecting to leave the store with an ipad, not at all... I didn't know what to think. We talked it over and I was so nervous for some reason but we left with one and I wasn't sure what to think. Right out of the store is a kiosk with invisible shields, needless to say an hour after that I left with an ipad, invisible shield, and keyboard case combo. When we got out to the car I screamed. I was in shock and so happy and nervous. I couldn't believe my husband had just done this. I will admit it was a rash decision and not the smartest one but honestly as bad as it sounds... I'm not complaining!!

Memories

I remember when I first met Matt I could tell his family meant the world to him. This was a different concept for me because my family has always been pretty much scattered all over. I stopped living with my mom the summer before sixth grade and have moved a lot and never really lived near any of my family. Even now my family doesn’t live close and you learn to adapt to that. As I get older though I appreciate family and long to live near them.
But Matt is defined by his family. They have helped shape him into the wonderful man he is. They helped guide him and teach him to be a decent person. I can see the many facets of him and can pin point which family member he got that from. I love that about him. I love how much he will do for his family even if they wouldn’t always do the same for him. It’s a good feeling to see someone with such a big heart give so freely to the people he loves.
Matt always talks to me about the good parenting skills his dad has taught him. He says that he didn’t do anything bad because his dad only had to give him “the look” and he wouldn’t dare do anything bad. It’s “the look” that Matt says he wants to do to our kids. As Matt gets older he resembles his dad so much more and I can imagine how he will look at his Dad’s age. Even down to this little patch of hair that Matt has on his hand in the same exact spot and Matt brings that up often. It’s weird how when you age you start to resemble your parents so much more.
Its crazy how fast life passes you by before you have the proper chance to tell someone how much you care about them and how much they mean to you. You want to tell them about the time you told them you loved them and they said it back and you appreciated it more than they could know. Or the time you saw them in so much pain dealing with the worst thing imaginable and you prayed to God to take it away. You want them to know how much they truly mean to you but words just can't express.
Life is a precious thing, something that should never be taken for granted.

SOA

WOW….

I love me some Jax from Son’s of Anarchy on FX, an amazing show and he definitely makes it better. I have a think for bad boys and this helps!!

This is me….

I would have to say this is one of my biggest pet peeves. I always think about what if’s then I worry myself to death about them. I feel like if I can prepare myself for the what if problems then they won’t be such a shock when they happen. A lot of the time this worrying is in my head and most people don’t know that its worrying 24/7 but my husband knows. He always tells me that I can’t worry about what if stuff because there is no point. As much as I know he’s right I still do it.

Halloweiner…..

I love Halloween and always have. I can remember my mom getting into Halloween when we were kids and my brother and I would dress up and so would my mom. It was always such a big deal. I can remember being a witch for most of elementary and my mom drawing a really cool spider web with a spider on my face. I was in third grade and felt so cool! As I got older I loved everything to do with Halloween like scary movies and going to haunted houses. When Matt and I got together we would usually just rent a bunch of scary movies, order pizza, and veg out getting spooked. Then we started a Halloween party tradition and made sure everyone came dressed up and we played games and voted on the best Halloween costume. It was always a big deal to think of a creative costume and not tell anyone just to see their reaction. Now that we are in school and don’t have as much money or time we stopped the Halloween parties and I have been bummed. This year we carved pumpkins, watched spooky movies and ordered Chinese. It was fun hanging out with my guy and eating junk food!

I am hoping that when we have kids the whole Halloween experience will be so much better because we will have a little one to dress up and give out candy.

My best Halloween movie is actually Halloween and all of them even the newest ones that Rob Zombie did.

         

Day 30 - A picture of someone you miss

Sorry mom, not the best picture but I liked the look on your face. I miss my mom. As I get older I miss her more and more. I miss being able to do certain things with her and learning things from her. I know when I have a baby I will miss having her close.

Day 29 - A picture that can always make you smile

This picture always makes me smile because my hubby makes me laugh constantly. I know what he’s thinking and we always have these little inside jokes. Also he makes the BEST BBQ’d burgers.

Day 28 - A picture of something you're afraid of

Spiders!!!! EEEEKKKKK!!!

Day 27 - A picture of yourself and a family member

This is me and my bud Alex (yes another wedding pic, it’s all I have people)! I have known him for as long as I have been with my husband but we have a special bond. Alex is always available to be a listening ear and he is always good about pumping you up. He has the biggest heart of anyone I know and is very much a good person, even though he would act like his heart is made of stone!! My husband and I are so thankful to have him in our lives and I hope he truly knows that.

Day 26 - A picture of something that means a lot to you

If we are talking about a thing and not someone I would have to say my house…. My husband and I worked hard for this and we deserve it and we appreciate being able to live in such a nice place. I think part of this being so special is that its our first place together and the place where we will raise our children.

Day 25 - A picture of your day

School started back up this week after a few weeks off. I have Christian Theology, Math Structures (for teaching math), and English fundamentals……yuck! This is me “attempting” to read my theology book while my mind wanders on other things.

Day 24 - A picture of something you wish you could change

My weight; I wish I was skinny, even just 30-40 pounds lighter. I don’t stress about it as much as I used to but I know it’s going to get harder and harder to lose the weight.

Day 23 - A picture of your favorite book

I love the book, She’s Come Undone. I have read this book four times and would read it four more times. It was on Oprah’s book club a long time ago and I picked it up and it changed my life. Such an amazing story and very well written.

Day 22 - A picture of something you wish you were better at

I always wish I could draw or paint but I can’t. I can do a lot of crafts and consider myself a crafty person but drawing and painting are not my things!

Day 21 - A picture of something you wish you could forget

The picture in my head of my mom and dad’s face at my brother’s viewing. I don’t think any parent should have to see their child being buried. It was a horrible day but I know he’s in heaven.

Day 20 - A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel

I would love to travel to Japan with my hubby. I know its somewhere he would like to go and it would be out of my comfort zone. I never have really wanted to travel out of the country but as I get older I am realizing there is so much to see and learn and I don’t want to miss out on it.

Day 19 - A picture and a letter

This letter is for my future baby…

For many years I wasn’t sure if I wanted to have kids because I worried I wouldn’t be a good mother. I worried I wouldn’t know what to do and I wouldn’t know how to love you or teach you the right things. I worried that I wouldn’t be able to teach you to be a strong person and be who you want to be.  But this all changed a year ago after I pictured holding you in my arms. I could see myself smiling and I could see your dad standing next to me with a smile from ear to ear. I started to picture you growing up and you happy and healthy. Then I could see you having your first heart break and your dad consoling you and making it better. I see you as the strong person who is secure in them self and I realize I helped create you and mold you into this person. From that day on I have wanted you and prayed about you and can’t wait until the day is right and you come to meet us.

Day 18 - A picture of your biggest insecurity

Not sure how to do a picture of an insecurity... Being good enough is my biggest insecurity and something I worry about in all aspects of my life but something I work on.

Day 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently

This is actually two pictures….I am breaking the rules!

 

The first is the death of my brother Daniel. He was a step brother who became family because of marriage but he was our brother and his death was sudden and horrible. I am sad that he left this world and left his daughter and his family. My brother wasn’t perfect but he didn’t deserve anything that happened and I know justice will come one day.

The second is the death of my mother in law. She was taken by cancer and has left a whole in our family; one that I’m not sure will ever be filled. I miss her ever day and think about her constantly.

Day 16 - A picture of someone who inspires you

My mom. She had my brother and me when she was young and she tried to raise us the best way she knew how. She didn’t raise me for a majority of my life but was somewhat of a constant in my life. As I got older and let go of the past I embraced her and loved her for who she was and the things she did teach me. After many years I was finally able to accept all the amazing qualities she gave me. She taught me to accept people for who they are and love them for their flaws. She showed me that people do deserve a second, third, fourth, and fifth chance in life. But the biggest life lesson was her hard working attitude. She works hard for what she has and has given me that drive to work for the things you want because they will not be given to you. My mom is an amazing Grandma who loves her three grandchildren with everything in her soul and I admire that. I can’t wait for her to be a grandma for our children because I know she will be a lasting blessing in their lives. 

Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die

I would love to travel to New York. It might not seem like much but something I would love to do. I want to go exploring on the streets, take in a show, and experience all the yummy food. I don’t have a huge desire to go out of the country but I have always wanted to just experience New York.