Running….

This is so true. I really need to start running again. I need to make this a priority and I will feel so much better.

My Life

Started homework today at noon, took a two hour break for dinner and Modern Family then went back to homework. Been at it for six hours and probably have at least another three hours left tonight. Its hard to get back into this groove when I haven’t had school for six weeks. It was nice being able to do what I wanted when I wanted to do it. I just have to tell myself this is all worth it.

Life Changes In An Instant

I am realizing that life is really short, shorter than I would like to admit. When you’re a young teenager/adult you think that you have a long time to live and you wish you were older and you wish your life would move along. I used to think this all the time. I wanted to get married, have a house, a good job, and a lot of other things. Now I look at what I have and am so grateful for all of it but I realize I am almost 30 and life is just whizzing by. I feel like putting my life on slow motion so that time will slow down a bit. Especially with Matt’s step mom Cheryl battling cancer life feels like its moving at lightning speed. I think about all the things I want to do and still need to do. I think about the fact that Matt and I don’t have kids and it makes me extremely sad to think that Cheryl may never know our children and they won’t know her. I think about Matt’s dad and how heartbroken and lonely he will feel if she loses this battle with cancer. I think about how our family won’t be the same. Get togethers won’t be the same without her. I realize life is so short and for some it’s shorter than they realize. I know God has a plan for all of us but I wonder why he takes some so soon. All of this makes me think of my step brother who passed away not long ago. His life was cut so short and none of us realized we would have such a short precious time with him. I think about his daughter Taylie and how she won’t get to know her dad as she gets older. He won’t be able to walk her down the aisle if she gets married and he won’t be able to be a grandpa to her children. I think about my parents and how they lost a child. I feel sad for my step dad since he lost his only son.

I hope people realize how short life is and be thankful for the time you have and the family and friends you are given. Love them like today is the last day you may see them and make sure they know how much they mean to you.