Day 28 - A picture of something you're afraid of

Spiders!!!! EEEEKKKKK!!!

Day 27 - A picture of yourself and a family member

This is me and my bud Alex (yes another wedding pic, it’s all I have people)! I have known him for as long as I have been with my husband but we have a special bond. Alex is always available to be a listening ear and he is always good about pumping you up. He has the biggest heart of anyone I know and is very much a good person, even though he would act like his heart is made of stone!! My husband and I are so thankful to have him in our lives and I hope he truly knows that.

Day 26 - A picture of something that means a lot to you

If we are talking about a thing and not someone I would have to say my house…. My husband and I worked hard for this and we deserve it and we appreciate being able to live in such a nice place. I think part of this being so special is that its our first place together and the place where we will raise our children.

Day 25 - A picture of your day

School started back up this week after a few weeks off. I have Christian Theology, Math Structures (for teaching math), and English fundamentals……yuck! This is me “attempting” to read my theology book while my mind wanders on other things.

Day 24 - A picture of something you wish you could change

My weight; I wish I was skinny, even just 30-40 pounds lighter. I don’t stress about it as much as I used to but I know it’s going to get harder and harder to lose the weight.

Day 23 - A picture of your favorite book

I love the book, She’s Come Undone. I have read this book four times and would read it four more times. It was on Oprah’s book club a long time ago and I picked it up and it changed my life. Such an amazing story and very well written.

Day 22 - A picture of something you wish you were better at

I always wish I could draw or paint but I can’t. I can do a lot of crafts and consider myself a crafty person but drawing and painting are not my things!

Day 21 - A picture of something you wish you could forget

The picture in my head of my mom and dad’s face at my brother’s viewing. I don’t think any parent should have to see their child being buried. It was a horrible day but I know he’s in heaven.

Day 20 - A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel

I would love to travel to Japan with my hubby. I know its somewhere he would like to go and it would be out of my comfort zone. I never have really wanted to travel out of the country but as I get older I am realizing there is so much to see and learn and I don’t want to miss out on it.

Day 19 - A picture and a letter

This letter is for my future baby…

For many years I wasn’t sure if I wanted to have kids because I worried I wouldn’t be a good mother. I worried I wouldn’t know what to do and I wouldn’t know how to love you or teach you the right things. I worried that I wouldn’t be able to teach you to be a strong person and be who you want to be.  But this all changed a year ago after I pictured holding you in my arms. I could see myself smiling and I could see your dad standing next to me with a smile from ear to ear. I started to picture you growing up and you happy and healthy. Then I could see you having your first heart break and your dad consoling you and making it better. I see you as the strong person who is secure in them self and I realize I helped create you and mold you into this person. From that day on I have wanted you and prayed about you and can’t wait until the day is right and you come to meet us.

Day 18 - A picture of your biggest insecurity

Not sure how to do a picture of an insecurity... Being good enough is my biggest insecurity and something I worry about in all aspects of my life but something I work on.

Day 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently

This is actually two pictures….I am breaking the rules!

 

The first is the death of my brother Daniel. He was a step brother who became family because of marriage but he was our brother and his death was sudden and horrible. I am sad that he left this world and left his daughter and his family. My brother wasn’t perfect but he didn’t deserve anything that happened and I know justice will come one day.

The second is the death of my mother in law. She was taken by cancer and has left a whole in our family; one that I’m not sure will ever be filled. I miss her ever day and think about her constantly.

Day 16 - A picture of someone who inspires you

My mom. She had my brother and me when she was young and she tried to raise us the best way she knew how. She didn’t raise me for a majority of my life but was somewhat of a constant in my life. As I got older and let go of the past I embraced her and loved her for who she was and the things she did teach me. After many years I was finally able to accept all the amazing qualities she gave me. She taught me to accept people for who they are and love them for their flaws. She showed me that people do deserve a second, third, fourth, and fifth chance in life. But the biggest life lesson was her hard working attitude. She works hard for what she has and has given me that drive to work for the things you want because they will not be given to you. My mom is an amazing Grandma who loves her three grandchildren with everything in her soul and I admire that. I can’t wait for her to be a grandma for our children because I know she will be a lasting blessing in their lives. 

Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die

I would love to travel to New York. It might not seem like much but something I would love to do. I want to go exploring on the streets, take in a show, and experience all the yummy food. I don’t have a huge desire to go out of the country but I have always wanted to just experience New York.

Fun and Games

My brother, sister in law, and two nephews came into town and we were having fun with my iphone. My nephews were laughing so hard how how funny they looked.

Day 14 - A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without

My guy, my other half, and my best friend.

Day 13 - A picture of your favorite band or artist

Adele – She’s beautiful and has an amazing voice. Her music is soothing and speaks to my soul!

Day 12 - A picture of something (somebodies) you love

I love my husband, my family, and my friends. Just SOME of those people I love are below.